Real Life Rantings! Argh!

[The-Elf-Herself]

Unrant---> I have all the writing assignments I can stand: I'm reading through and taking notes on 'The Brothers Karamazov', an amazing book, and I'm also supposed to answer discussion questions and think of creative writing things based off it. I'm also busy figuring out how many monetary/scholarship writing contests I can get meself into, writing a ten-page term paper AND there's my own writing and poetry on the side, plus loads of extra grammar work. :D

Rant---> stupid, stupid chemistry keeps sticking it's ugly head into my business, not to mention financial math and oh yeah, that little thing known as the math section of the SATs that I'm STILL not ready for. *sighs*

[Turin]

Rant: One of my ribs on my right side won't stop hurting. I can't remember anything I did to make it hurt like that. My mom thinks I might have fractured it, but I doubt it. Hopefully it'll go away in a couple days.

[Niirewen]

Rant: I have to do Adpot-a-road tomorrow (cleaning up the side of some road) for the community service hours I need for National Honor Society. I can always get enough hours through activities at my church, which I much prefer over the ones at school, but for some reason ( :rolleyes: ) we're required to do at least two Adopt-a-roads over the year (I haven't done any yet). And tomorrow it's supposed to be cloudy and cold. :(

Rant: Chemistry test tomorrow. Ack.

[Dragon]

snowboarding; my dad ran into me b/c he is inept. Somehow I got hit in the head w/ his snowboard.

bad headache.

luckily, he made us wear helmets this last time.

[Niirewen]

Somehow I got hit in the head w/ his snowboard
Ouch! That has got to hurt. Last time we went skiing, my brother totally ran into one of the snow-making thingys. He hit it so hard, I thought he would be knocked unconscious or something. Luckily, he was fine, and it was really funny afterward.

Unrant: Adopt-a-road wasn't as bad as I thought, it wasn't too cold. Though I did get some pretty bad scratches on my arm and hand- most of the trash was in thronbushes. There was so much trash on such a little piece of road.. people are such litterbugs.

Rant: The office gave me tons of work today- two boxes half as big as me, plus two smaller ones. And it all has to be done by Monday! *is overwhelmed*

[Turin]

Unrant: I rode 8.5 miles today down a few trails that barely anyone ever goes on, we found a lot of cool places to make new trails and hills. This was a good ride, I wasn't very tired and I rode about 15mph the whole way(thats pretty fast to ride a long distance on a bike), but my max was only 26mph :(.

Rant: I will be staying up late tonight to do a test.

Unrant: Tomorrow is Friday! I get to go camping and I actually want to go.

[Ambartur]

Hey! I'm new!......Yeah......

Unrant------->Today's my birthday! Hurray! It kinda sucked though. I didn't get any presents at all, and the cake that my mom got me sucked badly, and my girlfriend forgot that it was my birthday until her best friend reminded her. *sigh* I don't know what I'm gonna do with her....

Rant---------> I hate being alone! Dah!!! I have friends and all, but it seems I can never let myself let go! It's like, I want so bad to be able to love someone without a care, but I can never let myself. It seems like I'm always, regardless of time or place, alone. Even with other people, they hardly ever, if ever, talk to me; and when I'm at any kind of social gathering, I'm always off to the side, by myself, watching everyone else laugh and talk. All I want is to be able to go out there and do that; be able to hang with a group of people and actually feel accepted and respected and valued as a friend, but I can never let myself go out there and no one ever comes up to me! I hate being alone!

Rant--------->My girlfriend's parents never let us do anything together, and I do mean anything. I mean, we've been going out for over 4 and a half months, and they still don't let her go out! And so, I see her a whole whopping 10 minutes a day before school, and then another 2 minutes after school, and then I come home and get to talk to her for another 10 minutes of the phone, because her parents don't let her talk for any more than that. It sucks! We haven't even freakin' kissed!.......Anyway...

[numen]

oh, oh me next, me next

ok (deep breath)

1) My b/f dumped me after two years right when the pressure was piling up on me with uni.

2) I stupidly got drunk and OD'd (how much do i wish i hadn't done that) and now the doctor won't give me any sleeping pills, so my insommnia is so bad that i go to lectures without having any sleep (and sleep in the lectures, maybe i should ask my lecturer to stand by my bed and drone and that'll send me off)

3) All my friends have decided at the same time that they should all date each other and leave me the very stuck in the bloodly middle person. We always hang in threes. Now i am sat on my own while they snog

4) I have no money, which is kinda good coz i am so poor i can't eat and so i am losing weight.

5) My LOTR3 DVD won't play on the stupid PS2 - and thats the only reason i bought it. And my red dwarf DVD is overplayed same with Blackadder.

6) My life is generally **** and loney and often involves me staying in on a friday night to transcribe Tengwar. Oh please stop the fun
Ha beat that!

BTW happy b-day Ambartur!

[Turin]

...Even with other people, they hardly ever, if ever, talk to me; and when I'm at any kind of social gathering, I'm always off to the side, by myself, watching everyone else laugh and talk. All I want is to be able to go out there and do that; be able to hang with a group of people and actually feel accepted and respected and valued as a friend, but I can never let myself go out there and no one ever comes up to me! I hate being alone!


We can all relate. Of course we can! We're Outcasts! You're among friends ;).

[The-Elf-Herself]

Hmmm, since Rhian isn't here *hands out chocolates to one and all, with extra for numen*. That truly sucks chick, hope things get better.

unrant---> still slogging through 'The Brothers Karamazov', very good stuff.

rant---> I've discovered more growths on my dog Zigs and she's really slowing, poor thing. She's going to be fifteen this year, so I guess she'll be going sometime soon. :(

[Niirewen]

Ambartur and numen- I hope things will start getting better. Life is tough.. but it does help to be around people who can relate, and like Turin said, we're all outcasts around here.

Rant: I spent hours and hours on my english project lastnight, and then went to the library today and spent even more hours on it. I'm exhausted. At least I finished it.

Unrant: I decided I needed to do something to get my mood up after all those hours spent on my project.. so I went to a bookstore (again) and rented some movies.

[Turin]

I rather like the new version of VB3. I've found no major problems with any of the changes.

Rant: I have been finding it harder than usual to express what I have to say today. Maybe its this cold I have. :rolleyes:

Rant: I contracted a cold and a bad cough over the weekend campout. The only good thing is that I skipped the sore throat stage and went straight to the stuffed up head stage.

Rant: I had to go to the doctor today, I hate going to the doctor. I held out quite a long time though, the last time I was there was August 2002 :confused: :D.

[Rhiannon]

Rant: My sister is psychotic and keeps having big explosions. She gets really mad at us for not reading her mind, and she's freaking stubborn so she won't admit that she really is being totally insane and unreasonable. She's sixteen and pitches a fit like a three year old when she doesn't get her way, complete with screaming and knocking chairs over. And calling me names with five letters that start with 'b'.

Rant: They're already trying to move me out of my room! No, you may not move your dresser in here until AFTER I leave! Melody is already calling it 'her room'. My room! MY room! *locks self in room and clings to various belongings protectively*

Rant: I don't think I did very well on my English test just now. But whatever. It's an elective anyway.

Unrant: My shopping trip last week was really really really good and fun and relaxing and I had a great time and my senior pictures turned out well (they're up in the Forum Photo Album). I'm still getting good vibes off of my shopping trip. It's so nice to have jeans that fit.

And I bought a chair. A dish chair. It's very cool. My cats are in love with it.

[Turin]

Rant: My sister is psychotic and keeps having big explosions. She gets really mad at us for not reading her mind, and she's freaking stubborn so she won't admit that she really is being totally insane and unreasonable


Wow, sounds a lot like my dad :eek:.

[Saucy]

Rant: Life sucks (still) :(

[numen]

rant-im am tired, i haven't slept properly for over a week. Yesterday i had to get up at nine for a lecture, but i didn't get to sleep till seven. I am sooo tired.

[Lomelinde]

rant: why is it when I take one day off my mom calls me a slacker but if I work my butt off for a week no one notices?

rant: admissions councilor told me two weeks ago that I should be hearing their acceptance decision "very soon" - have I? No.

blah

[Turin]

rant: why is it when I take one day off my mom calls me a slacker but if I work my butt off for a week no one notices?



Thats just how life(or moms) is :rolleyes:. Since my brother goes to public school and I'm homeschooled everybody thinks that I should be doing more of the house work because my brother has "homework". He can get home from school and just sit in his room all day while I have to do all my work plus what he is supposed to do.

[Ambartur]

Rant: My girlfriend broke up with me this morning, so once again...I am alone. It's almost as if everything is doing everything they can to keep me from being happy. Perhaps it is my doom to be desperate and alone my whole life; to help and comfort everyone else while I suffer from my own mentality. It wouldn't take much to convince me...

Yeah, I'll be in an ever-worsening bad mood for about the next two months...

[Lomelinde]

Since my brother goes to public school and I'm homeschooled everybody thinks that I should be doing more of the house work because my brother has "homework". He can get home from school and just sit in his room all day while I have to do all my work plus what he is supposed to do.

yeah actually I have the same exact problem. :rolleyes:

[Niirewen]

Boo for crazy and frustrating siblings. My brother also throws temper tantrums over stupid things and likes to slam doors. Being in the room right next to him, I really don't like that.

Rhi- My mom is already trying to take over my room and I'm still a junior! I don't even know why she would need another room. I refuse to let it go, even when I'm in college. Oh, and I saw your pictures in the photo album.. you look so cute, I really like them! :)

Right now I'm in denial about having to leave my little hamster behind when I go off to college. It's still awhile away, but I'm worried about it. No one else knows how to care for him, and he only knows me, he's very skittish around other people. My poor little baby.. :(

Unrant: The weather today was really nice. I even ate lunch outside. :D

Rant: We're having a 1920's party in English class on Friday, and I'm missing school that day! :(

[Turin]

Rant: We're having a 1920's party in English class on Friday, and I'm missing school that day! :(

This Friday(the Friday before spring break) is always senior skip day down here :p.

Rant: The first three days of spring break my retarded homeschooling group decides to have testing! They claim that its the only time that they could get facilities but I know better, they're just doing it because they know that anybody in the school who has a life would want to do something besides school on spring break!!! :mad: :mad:

[Rhiannon]

Oh, and I saw your pictures in the photo album.. you look so cute, I really like them!
Thank you! I'm really happy with them--I don't look like Grendel's mother! Hurrah! :D

[Ambartur]

Rant: Today was even worse than yesterday. I had to go on a band competition and my new ex-girlfriend happened to sit directly across the aisle from me. It was so freakin' torturous to not be able to just look over at her, or smile at her, or say anything to her...I mean, what can you do? I love her so much, but what can I do?...

Rant: I went kinda nuts in my room today. First, I was lying in my bed, when all of a sudden I start to lose control, and I just jerked up all of a sudden. Then, I stood up really fast, managing to hit my head on the bunk bed, and starting playing my bass really hard, which hurt my fingers pretty bad. Then on an impulse, I pulled off my belt and started hitting myself on the arm with it as hard as I could. With my arm now fully red and my mind flooded with the pain of it, I finally just fell onto the floor of my room, gasping and crying. I crawled back onto my bed and laid there for a while.

The red marks are gone now, and I feel a little better...But only a little...the bad part is, I know it will get worse...I've been here before and I know the signs. I know when I'm getting depressed...I don't want to have to go through that again...It took so much out of me, and if I have to carry that again, then I don't know if I will be able to handle it...Yeah, it'll definately get worse before it gets better...

Soon, since I'll have no outlet to vent my feelings, I'll start getting more and more unstable, until finally my ability to control myself with crack and I'll break down...I'll lose control...Hopefully, I'll be alone if and when that happens, though...And then the process will start all over again, until finally I'll lose control and not regain it...Now, granted, that's never happened before, but it just might...Knowing my life, it probably will...

Anyway, I guess I'll go now...

[numen]

Ambartur, I hope you feel better. My friend used to self harm and its hard to stop, but remember that life is gonna get better one day. " the sun will come out, and when it does it'll shine out the clearer" I now how you feel. I hope you feel better soon



life has got better

unrant-i found this really nice guy who dosn't think that my LOTR obsession is strange. And he likes LOTR as well.

unrant-its the easter holidays and i get to go home

unrant- i have managed to finish *most* of my work- insommnia good for somethings(with the rest to do over easter)

unrant- i managed to sleep last night! That is so good. I got to sleep around one and i didn't wake up till 10! I was sooooo happy! Hopefully i will be able to do the same tonight

Thank too everyone who supported me when i was so down a couple of weeks ago. Things have got so much better in much a short time. It still hurts about my ex so badly- but i try not to think about it. I felt so stupid for OD'ing, like a depressed teenager or something, but now i look back on it, it seems like i am watching it on a TV and i have no connection with the character. If you now what i mean. I do have some rants though!


Rant- my friend are still slurping away in front of me

Rant- i won't see *new guy* until after easter (three weeks)

Rant- *old guy* i hate him, i hate him, i hate him (im so not bitter) he told me that "he loves me, but hes not in love with me" god that hurt so much.

Rant- i have to go and stay at my mums for a while- we really don't get on. Its gonna be a weekend of pain.

[Turin]

Rant: Today was even worse than yesterday. I had to go on a band competition and my new ex-girlfriend happened to sit directly across the aisle from me. It was so freakin' torturous to not be able to just look over at her, or smile at her, or say anything to her...I mean, what can you do? I love her so much, but what can I do?...

Rant: I went kinda nuts in my room today. First, I was lying in my bed, when all of a sudden I start to lose control, and I just jerked up all of a sudden. Then, I stood up really fast, managing to hit my head on the bunk bed, and starting playing my bass really hard, which hurt my fingers pretty bad. Then on an impulse, I pulled off my belt and started hitting myself on the arm with it as hard as I could. With my arm now fully red and my mind flooded with the pain of it, I finally just fell onto the floor of my room, gasping and crying. I crawled back onto my bed and laid there for a while.

The red marks are gone now, and I feel a little better...But only a little...the bad part is, I know it will get worse...I've been here before and I know the signs. I know when I'm getting depressed...I don't want to have to go through that again...It took so much out of me, and if I have to carry that again, then I don't know if I will be able to handle it...Yeah, it'll definately get worse before it gets better...

Soon, since I'll have no outlet to vent my feelings, I'll start getting more and more unstable, until finally my ability to control myself with crack and I'll break down...I'll lose control...Hopefully, I'll be alone if and when that happens, though...And then the process will start all over again, until finally I'll lose control and not regain it...Now, granted, that's never happened before, but it just might...Knowing my life, it probably will...

Anyway, I guess I'll go now...

Start listening to Linkin Park, they helped me through times when I was depressed.

[Ambartur]

I don't like Linkin Park. It's all about Dashboard Confessional, Further Seems Forever (or any other good emo band), Evanescence, and Tool. (And, of course, Warrior Poets ;))

Unrant: Today was slightly better. We kinda sorta hung out, even though it was only for a few minutes. I just can't help but to lose control when I'm around her. Even when I hate to be around her because it hurts so much, I love it because I love her so much, and I just want to be with her regardless. It sucks...But I'm gonna call her today and talk about it, so hopefully, that might help things a little...

[The-Elf-Herself]

rant---> *sighs* ummmm, *sighs again*, nothing. :( :rolleyes:

unrant---> took SATs today, they were really easy and fun(well, I went into it playing Weird Al songs in my head, drastically changes one's perspective). I'm confident that I got 99% of the verbal right and maybe 50% of the math(the math one may not sound so great, but considering my trask record wit math...). Also, stayed over at a friend's house, watched 'I Love Lucy' reruns, looked up Tolkien pictures on Elfwood, and encouraged each other in our respectively geekish writing endeavors.

[Lomelinde]

unrant---> took SATs today, they were really easy and fun

yeah I actually love taking the SAT - it's quite refreshing. the ACT however leaves my brain in a fog for atleast 24 hours after I've taken it. blah.

rant --> I have to take the ACT :(

[Niirewen]

Rant: All those college visits were exhausting. I had practically no weekend to rest and now I have to go back to a whole week of school tomorrow. :( At least next week is Spring break, although I'm going on even more college visits then..

Unrant: I was really restless when I got home after hours in the car (not fun- I have really bad motion sickness) so I went on a long run for the first time in awhile, because it was really nice out. I cannot tell you how good that felt.

..and speaking of the ACTs, I also have to take them soon :(..

[Rhiannon]

UNRANT! I'M GETTING A CAR! I'M GETTING A CAR! I'M GETTING A CAAAAR!!!!!!!!!


Wahoo! Finally! And I'll be able to pay my parents back for it, too. That means I get to keep. It'll be my personal property and I won't have to pass it on to my sisters. Mine mine mine mine. It's a white Chevy Lumina with a red interior. I'm leaning towards calling it 'Lynette'. Wahoo!

[Turin]

I'm leaning towards calling it 'Lynette'. Wahoo!

Wow, naming your car, you never fail to surprise me Rhi :D.
BTW: Congrats on the car! My brother needs a car but he can't pay for insurance until he gets a job. :(

Rant: Its the end of spring break and I barely did anything fun the whole week, the first three days where taken up by testing and the other days I couldn't do anything fun.

Unrant: I don't have geography class on monday! Or science on wednesday!

Rant: I'm failing geography. Theres just something thats keeping me from understanding what I'm supposed to do but nobody else seems to have a problem with it.

[Saucy]

congrats on ur car

rant: iam bored :(

[Niirewen]

Ooh, congratulations, Rhi! That's exciting!

I've been saving up for a car for awhile.. and I've almost got enough, so hopefully I'll have my own car as well by next month or so. :D

No one has been around here lately.. it was starting to freak me out. Last week I was incredibly busy because all my teachers were ending their units before Spring Break so I had tons of tests/projects. But..

Unrant: Yay, it's finally Spring Break! And, I have no projects or anything because I slaved over my English paper for two days so I could hand it in before the break.

Rant: The weather is supposed to be really yucky all week.. :( So I've been stuck inside being really broed and eating too much. I envy all the people going to Florida and other nice places over the break.

[Rhiannon]

Wow, naming your car, you never fail to surprise me Rhi .
We always name the cars in our family :cool: the Mercedes-Benz was Mary-Beth, the Jenson Healey was Jenny, the 300 ZX was Eliza, because they call it a Fairlady Z in Japan....

I get her in ten hours! Wahoo!!!

[Niirewen]

So I guess you have your car by now, Rhi. How is it? :)

Rant (sort of): I'm feeling pretty depressed right now.. which is never good. Also I can't stop eating jellybeans. This is not good either. I don't even like jellybeans. *sigh*

[Lomelinde]

Rant: Just tried on prom dress to make sure it matched all accessories. Dress was in explicably tighter and ill fitting. Prom is next Friday. *AHHHHHHHH!* :mad:

[Rhiannon]

So I guess you have your car by now, Rhi. How is it? :)
It's niiiiice. Though I haven't actually driven her since we brought her home, because she needs stickers so I can drive her on the base. Siiiigh. Maybe my sister and I can go to the coffee house tonight to celebrate my new transportability....

[My_Precious]

Unrant: I am finally here! Although by now this place slightly scares me with all the new information.
Unrant: We moved, so now I have my own balcony (although the room is slightly smaller), and we live on a second floor instead of the first.
Rant: I worked all my spring break, and sometimes was even double-scheduled... And working 14 hours a day is not fun.
Rant: Also, we moved, so now our new apartment is littered with boxes and pieces of furniture. And I have a couple really nice purplish-green bruises... ;) And we don't have a phone... (we have the line, we just can't find the actual phone :D )
Rant: I still have to do my taxes, pay off my summer school, give my new address to about 200 places, and get a health insurance.
Well, I've got to run to my chem class...*sigh*
BTW, Congratulations on the new car, Rhi! And welcome to all the new members :)

[Vixen Evenstar]

rant: I havn't been here in a billion billion years! I bet no one remembers me...

[The-Elf-Herself]

Hmmm, who are you again? :confused: ;)

rant---> people, people, too many people! I want everyone to buzz off for a day so that I can finish this paper!

unrant---> brother and MPU are off to a movie tomorrow and Mom is going to be away...*sighs happily* I'm not usually antisocial, but I need to get this paper done, I've had it worked out for ages and if I don't get it down on paper my head's going to explode.

unrant---> got SAT scores back, I'm quite happy, they'll definitely get me into my preferred college. :cool:

[My_Precious]

rant---> people, people, too many people! I want everyone to buzz off for a day so that I can finish this paper!

Going online will definitelly help you finish it! ;)

[The-Elf-Herself]

Going online will definitelly help you finish it!

Yep! :D You'd be surprised how therapeutic it is... ;)

[Rhiannon]

Rant: HSU has withdrawn several of the scholarships they were offering that I would have been eligible for (and which my brother gets) without sending out any kind of notification. My mom is really ticked off. Financially it's still the best choice (we freaked out temporarily--"Okay, God, now what? You want me to go somewhere else? Can I have some kind of easily interpreted dream, or something? Help me out here."), but since my brother and I are in college at the same time it'll be really pushing the budget. And the year he graduates my sister will be starting. Eeeeek.

[Ambartur]

But at least you have a car, right, Rhi?

Rant--I'm still freakin' sick! What's up with that??? I've been sick for almost three weeks now! That is so messed up...But at least I've broken my record for the longest time I've been sick ever, right?

Unrant--I went on a Youth Trip this weekend. Ooo, fun...The first day was pretty crappy 'cause I didn't see any of my friends from around the state, btu the second day was pretty fun. That may be 'cause I was so sleep-deprived (I stayed up all night walking around the hotel lobby, singing along to Dashboard Confessional...It was pretty awesome...Even though I couldn't really sing along to it, being still sick...). Ever notice how when you get really, really tired, you stop being tired and just go without stopping? Or is that just me?...Hmm...

Rant--I did get one of my friend-from-around-the-state's e-mail adress, but I can't get it to work. It keeps on saying that it can't find said e-mail adress. How gay is that?

Rant--Still missing my ex-girlfriend...:( It still hurts just as much...But I haven't hitten (Is that a word?...I don't think so...) myself like that again. She told me not to...So I won't...

Unrant--I found a girl who loves Dashboard Confessional just as much as me! And she's a real person! That's awesome!...Anyway, she even has Swiss Army Romance, the one that I can't find anywhere! Argh! I'm gonna get her to give it to me, so I can burn it...And then all I'll need is the So Impossible EP, I'll have them all! Yay!

Unrant--I'm accepting my grief without freaking out now! That's pretty good. I was going kinda crazy before, but God worked on me a bit, and now I just have to wait for it to get better. It still sucks now, though...It's a cycle. It's good for a while, and then it's bad for a while, and then it gets bad again, etc...It's all an endless cycle that only stops when you die (I'm enlightened like that...;)) All you can do is enjoy the good times, and live through the bad...It'll get good again, I just have to wait for it...Even though it still sucks now...

[Dragon]

I'm here........but not here.......

I'm barely ever here anymore........

what happened?

[Turin]

Unrant: Someone has decided to pay for my plane ticket to go to a youth camp in Missouri(sp?) this summer!

Unrant: I got $25 extra dollars for helping in the tape room this past week at a church convention. We only made about 1800 tapes :rolleyes:, and I had to spot check and box each one :eek:.

[The-Elf-Herself]

rant---> headache today, Jam with a headache is NOT a pleasant sight.

unrant---> had an amazingly cool idea, must work on it further.

[Niirewen]

Rant: Ack! Stupid computers! The internet on my computer has been broken for awhile.. and my dad didn't get around to fixing it until today. I feel like I've been gone so long.. it's good to be back!! :D

[Niirewen]

Rant: It's been really warm out lately.. which is nice, except my mother refuses to turn on the air conditioning (it was almost 90 degrees today.. augh) and it gets really hot especially in my room which is at the end of the hallway and has no cross-ventilation. So I've been having a terrible time sleeping despite my fan being on full blast!! :mad:

Unrant: Went to a tae bo class tonight, which was very good.. I need to start getting back into shape..


And where is everyone?? Have all the Outcasts mysteriously disappeared? :eek:

[Turin]

I'm still here. I wish Yay would post here every once in a while, he was online a couple days ago but he barely posted. :confused:

Unrant: I only need $20 more to buy a part for my bike that I've been saving up for a long time.

[Rhiannon]

This (http://worldmag.com/world/issue/04-17-04/cover_1.asp) is my rant. There's other, minor, every-day rant worthy stuff going on, but this...this makes me violently angry.

[Turin]

Rant: One of my dogs died this morning sometime, he was very old and had numerous illnesses and I hope that he had a pain free passing. We have been expecting him to die for a while but its still very saddening. The other two dogs are affected by it too, he had pretty much been a father(not biological) to the youngest dog, they had a special bond.

[Niirewen]

Abortion is horrible. Anyone who tries to justify it makes me angry.

Turin- I'm so sorry about your dog. That's really sad. When my dog Skipper died 6 years ago it was very difficult, I had known him my whole life. It's so hard to lose a pet, who are so faithful and loving. I hope you'll feel better.


Unrant: Field trip tomorrow.. missing school.. yay!

[The-Elf-Herself]

Major empathies Turin, I have an old dog myself, she's going to go any day now. I'm just trying to make her last days really worth it.

rant---> lost something I shouldn't have lost but I didn't really lose it since I know where it is...I've just temporarily forgotten. :rolleyes:

unrant---> hum with a side of walking at dusk.

[Narya]

Abortion is horrible. Anyone who tries to justify it makes me angry.

Turin- I'm so sorry about your dog. That's really sad. When my dog Skipper died 6 years ago it was very difficult, I had known him my whole life. It's so hard to lose a pet, who are so faithful and loving. I hope you'll feel better.


Unrant: Field trip tomorrow.. missing school.. yay!


I once wrote a song about Abortion (and its effects)...

Anyway, regarding the Dog, it never gets easier. Once you attach yourself to anyone or anything...and they or it dies...it never is easy.

I cry everytime I see a dead animal in my backyard before. But something happened to me somewhere in my life that was more horrible and now I don't even know how to cry anymore- although some movies and songs still drive me to tears - but I can't cry as in CRY. Something in me hardened somehow.

But you know, it gets better. THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

[Paul]

I Met this girl at a Brand New concert at North Carolina but forgot to get her number! :( Oh well theres more fish in the sea! :rolleyes:

[Turin]

Thanks guys :). I happy that he's not in any more pain.

I Met this girl at a Brand New concert at North Carolina but forgot to get her number! Oh well theres more fish in the sea!

How could you forget to get her number? Thats just wrong :p.

[Niirewen]

Rant: My Internet keeps randomly not working.. :mad:

Rant: I am so stressed out.. I have a huge History test tomorrow, and I know that I know the unit really well, but I can't stop stressing about it.

Rant: I missed my chemistry class today and consequently missed the post-lab lesson. Not good. First off, my evil teacher was being a big meanie to me about missing the class.. grr. And I just found out we have to write a lab report on the last two labs. I understood the actual procedures, but I missed the teaching about what was actually going on. So how I'm going to write the report is a mystery to me.

Rant: I have to go to a SAT prep class tonight.. we're starting on math.. oh joy.


I really should stop complaining so much..

[Niirewen]

Things are so empty around here... it's lonely..

[Paul]

I just got singed up for SAT classes this summer :( Hope it will help :rolleyes:

[Niirewen]

*pokes head in hesitantly*


Rant: All the outcasts have gone and left me... :(


Seriously, has everyone died or something?

[MacAddict]

While this is my first post in a long while I am still here, while I don't post much anymore I am on the board almost everynight, sitting and watching the continulingly dwindling ammount of activity. So just the say that you are not the only Outcasts still alive; Turin is a local friend of mine and he still frequents this board. Activity really took a drop after RotK came out, sadly, it seems to have brought interest in the study of Tolkien by newcomers to a standstill, here atleast, I don't know how other boards are fairing. I'm still here.


~MacAddict

[Rhiannon]

Rhi comes galloping in on the back of George, the Outcasts' baby elephant mascot, and fireworks go off all around.

TA-DA! The Prodigal Militant Eowyn Outcast Fan returns!

I've gotten caught up in the press of real life, and simultaneously lost computer time and increased the number of forums a visit. There is something deeply screwed up in that. But tomorrow I start my new job, I'm still working six hours a week teaching a four year old, and in between I've become a moderater at middleearthrpg.com (EVERYONE WANTS TO JOIN! YOU KNOW YOU DO!) and have become addicted to playing in the Chronicles. Oh yeah, and I wrote a novel and in a month or so I'll start on the second draft.

Rhi collapses into Niri's arms.

[Talierin]

OMG one of my art pieces made Daily Deviation on Deviantart!!!!!!!! *faints after running around screaming*

[Rhiannon]

YAAAAAAY TAL!!!!!! Which one which one which one?

[Talierin]

The stained glass one with all the stars!

[Niirewen]

Woah, too many collapsing and fainting people! Congratulations Tal!! :)

Life does have a way of throwing everything at you all at once, so that sometimes you barely even have time to breathe. Definately know what that's like.

Well, it's just been lonely around here lately.. since no one's been around.. so everyone post more and please don't abandon me!

[Paul]

I started meeting with these kids at a bowling ally but next fridays going to be the last one Im going to be soooo bored oh well. i also asked this girl oout but she hasent said yes or no yet it sucks to wait :(

[Kailita]

*Pokes head in hesitantly* *Stumbles in as if in a daze* Wow...we're still alive. You guys...are still...here...

*Bursts into tears and throws herself down at the mercy of the Outcasts, ready to rant* Real life has robbed me of all Internet joys for the past...I don't even know how long it's been! Two months? Forever? CURSE YOU, AP EUROPEAN HISTORY TEST! Oh, Niri, I'm so sad that I haven't been able to be here for you. I promise, I'm not dead! Kailita still lives! And Rhi! Rhi Rhi Rhi, you're still here! And what about everyone else? Jam, D? Do the Outcasts still live? Is there still a home to come home to...?

Oh...I have missed you guys...*hugs*

[Rhiannon]

Kaaaaaaiaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! *flying tackle* Kaia Kaia Kaia! You're back! And your front! You're both here! Yaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!

We're still here. Jam is...around. Life is full of happenings yet very dull. We miiiiissed you! *happy chant dance around Kaia*

[Niirewen]

Real life has robbed me of all Internet joys for the past...I don't even know how long it's been!
Doesn't life suck like that?

But, yay!! You're back! There are actually other people here!!

[Niirewen]

Rant: I had another field trip today, and I missed the post-lab lesson in chemistry again, and we have to write a lab report again! So, once again, I have no idea what is going on. Last time I actually thought my report turned out pretty good, but then I saw the grading rubric, and there were all these equations I was suppposed to have included which I didn't know about because how the heck was I supposed to know what they were, let alone that we needed to include them in our labs, because I was not in class that day and no one told me about it.. *deep breath* And I was depending on getting a good grade on that report to bring up my 89 percent to and A, but that obviously isn't going to happen, and now I have this other stupid report to bring my grade down even more.. and if our report isn't good we will not only get a zero, but points taken off our grade!! Evil, evil chemistry! Oh, and did I mention that I have almost no time next weekend to do this? *collapses*

Isn't it amazing how much I can rant about chemistry??

[Kailita]

Eeeeeeeeee! Yay! :D *Joins the happy chant dance...around...herself...(?)* :confused::D *Cartwheels*

Ohhhh, Niri. Blegh. I hate chemistry. I feel your pain. Do you have a bad teacher? Mine is - seriously - the stereotypical boring monotone teacher. He hates us, we hate him, and he can't teach worth beans. So he puts on pointless videos for us and we throw water balloons at each other. :rolleyes: I wish I could help you out, but I probably understand the material even less than you.

[The-Elf-Herself]

*stumbles in and falls face-first on the floor with a loud thud* I'm dead. This is just my corpse typing my last message, the movements stimulated by a very weird case of post-mortem spasms. Yep.

rant---> I'm dead. Drama is killing me. The show must go on.

*faint, heartfelt groan comes from Jam's prostrate body*

Kai, is that you? Where the heck have you BEEN girl?! Cripes, I thought you were gone for good. Welcome back! :D

[Niirewen]

Water ballons? Sounds good to me ;) :p

Well.. I don't know that he's a bad teacher.. I mean, he's really thorough with the ciriculum and I guess that the people who actually understand chemistry learn a lot.. but the class is really hard because he expects so much, and sometimes he can just be mean. And he tends to go off on criticizing rants a lot. :rolleyes:

[Turin]

Wow, I've been gone a while, did you miss me ;) ? Anyway its nice to be back, I missed this thread. Unfortunately I won't be here most of the summer.
Well I don't really have any rants and I've got like 200 new posts to catch up on so, I'll post here later.

[Kailita]

Welcome back, Turin. :)

Jam! Jam-Jam-Jam-Jam-Jam...*spaz attack* Er...Jam's dead corpse. Well...at least you're here! :) Gone for good?? Heavens no. Not this Outcast. This was my first home, and though Real Life (curse it) may claim my soul for a few months on end, it will never claim me completely! *Takes up Shieldmaiden armor to defend herself against the brutality of Real Life*

Ick, Niri. It's even worse when the teacher isn't bad, because then you can't blame him for the class. (;)) But at least school is - at last! - drawing to a close. (Lucky homeschoolers. :p) What kind of science are you planning on taking next year? Hopefully something easier.

[Rhiannon]

A Long Tale of Great Woe

Well. Today was an interesting day.

After working last night, I dreamed an odd, complicated dream that was vaguely disturbing and involved elves, and then woke up this morning to the hum of my alarm going off at 8:30am. Bloody alarm. I shut it off, snuggled in bed for a while, and read fifty pages of The Cygnet and the Firebird. I crawled out of my room to join the ranks of the living at 10:30 and spent an hour of quality time with the computer.

Then the real fun began.

Melody and Travis needed to do Mother's Day shopping, so we made our way to the bank, where I cashed my check from Frauke, and then to Wal-Mart, where Travis bought Mom a tin watering can and Melody got Ma a little wire dragonfly. I took them to Taco Bell for lunch, and then we began the search for Melody's Rose of Sharon, to replace the one that she accidentally cut down. Two nurseries later, we found and purchased a flower that turned out to be a tree, and had to go home for the Suburban, since no tree was going to fit into the back of Lynette. Fortunately it's not far from Ye Olde Town Nursery to our house, because driving Westley with a tree in the back was a bit nerve wracking. Once we got the rose home, Melody and I left again so that I could shop for a somewhat smaller Mother's Day gift.

At the Front Porch I picked out the Willow Tree 'Love' figurine, which bears a vague resemblance to me--Melody and Rachel have both given Mom figures that look kind of like them, so it's only right for her to have one of me. The figure has brown shoulder-length hair, and is holding a rose. Then we went to The Enchanted Door, where Melody and I admired the antique furniture in the creaky upstairs, and knocked on the backs of all of the wardrobes, and I got some brightly colored stationary for Ma (with a 'J' for Jamie).

And then the real fun began. We were going around the square, getting into the left turn lane to get back on the main road, when the light changed--the lights in this town are mad. They change much too quickly. It flicked from yellow to red before I could do much of anything, and I came to a shrieking, sudden halt. The car squealed, skidded just a tad, the breaks made their grinding noise, and my hubcab went rolling into the middle of the intersection. Well. I made a command decision that going after the hubcab wasn't worth risking life and limb, the light changed...and the car wouldn't go forward. The front brakes seized up and wouldn't budge--until I went backwards a bit and then forward. But there was no coming to a full stop unless I wanted to stay full stopped. Joy. At first I thought a tire had blown, so I got off of main street and pulled into a parking space to check, but the tires were fine (if it had been a blown tire, I would have known where to find my spare, however). I tried driving again. Not happening--and little hope of getting as far as home. I headed for the residential area where I could safely run the stop signs, and got as far as the coffee house, where the nice lady let me use their phone. I got Melody a soda and me a mocha Big Train, and we played a rousing game of checkers while we waited for Papa to come rescue us (I won. It was a glorious victory).

Papa arrived with Westley, the Suburban, and drove Lynette to the Firestone place that was just down the street that just happened to be the place where she was worked on before. Front brakes are shot. All must go. $350. Good thing I just got a job.

Speaking of the job, after we left Lynette in the capable hands of three identical tall, skinny men who looked as though they fed off of car oil (possibly sucking it out of the vehicles like automotive vampires), we went to Hastings and rented the last 'Peter Pan' video (no DVD to be had), went home, and I had a very big glass of chocolate milk while we watched the first 2/3rds. Liked it very much, except for Tinker Bell. Then I had to leave for work. Whee. I worked the register mostly, opened the bathroom twice, shelved returned videos, and chatted with the airmen who came through my line. Military guys I can handle--ordinary teenagers, no. I stayed for closing and didn't get home until midnight, whereupon I curled up on the couch with Papa and watched the first five episodes of 'Cowboy Bebop' in one sitting. And drank more milk.

[Niirewen]

Of course we missed you, Turin! ;)

Kaia- I'm taking physics next year, and I hear, unfortunately, that it is a really hard class. Harder than Calc AP. Ah. Next year is going to be really hard.. most people slack off their senior year but I'm taking two AP classes and all the rest GT... Anyway, yes, thank goodness school is almost over! When does your school close? Our last day isn't until June 16th or something.. :(

Wow, Rhi. That's quite an interesting and adventure-filled day you had. Your poor car! I would have freaked out. Well, I hope you've recovered. :) Where do you work for your new job? I forgot. Is it a video rental place?

Unrant: When I went to the grocery store earlier I saw my friend who moved and who I haven't seen in months! She's here for the prom today.

Rant: I have to fill out these teacher and guidance counselor recommendation forms for colleges today. We have to answer all these questions before giving it to the teacher to write their letter. Some of the questions are really stupid- like "What was your most meaningful experience in their class?" :rolleyes:

Unrant: I wrote my lab report yesterday, so at least that's overwith..

[Rhiannon]

Wow, Rhi. That's quite an interesting and adventure-filled day you had. Your poor car! I would have freaked out. Well, I hope you've recovered. :) Where do you work for your new job? I forgot. Is it a video rental place?
It was wild, indeed. I feel that I dealt with the situation with remarkable presence of mind. I work at Hastings with is a 'media store'--books, music, movies (to rent and buy). I like it so far, though it's going to be an adjustment, giving away such big chunks of my time.

[Turin]

Rant: Today I had to go help my brother sell tickets for a car wash for our BSA troop. We hit a grocery store in the old people's section of town hoping that some of the old people would have been in boy scouts when they where kids. It didn't work too well, I made about $7 and my brother made $17 :rolleyes:. Oh well, it was to raise money for camp and I'm not going to camp, I just went to help him sell some tickets. I'm such a good brother :o :D.

Unrant: Last night we went to go see Van Helsing. It was so awesome!

[Niirewen]

Your job sounds nice, Rhi. Right now I'm having a bit of a lull with the work for my job. They hired someone else full time to do some of the work I've been doing, and weird things are going on with my boss (she's out of town a lot, and tends to forget to pass on information to me, and I think she's leaving the company) but I do have a pretty big mailing that I'm finishing up now.

I am so tired. I worked for my neighbor for 5 hours today because her daughter was having a party for her bat mitzvah and they needed extra help. I was on my feet the entire time, so my feet are killing me. At least I was paid nicely.

[Turin]

I am so tired. I worked for my neighbor for 5 hours today because her daughter was having a party for her bat mitzvah and they needed extra help. I was on my feet the entire time, so my feet are killing me. At least I was paid nicely.

I know how you feel, when I work in the tape room I'm standing up for 3 or 4 hours straight. And I have to work there morning and night for 4 1/2 days :(.

[Rhiannon]

That's what you do in retail. Stand up for five hours. Yeish.

[Turin]

Rant: I probably won't be able to come to TTF for most of June and July. I hope the place doesn't change too much while I'm gone.

Unrant: Only a few more weeks of School!

[Niirewen]

I know how you feel, when I work in the tape room I'm standing up for 3 or 4 hours straight. And I have to work there morning and night for 4 1/2 days
That's what you do in retail. Stand up for five hours. Yeish.
:( You guys have my sympathy.

[Gandalf White]

Unrant: Last night we went to go see Van Helsing. It was so awesome!

I hear it's even cooler if you keep your eyes open during the scary parts... :D

(Sorry man, I just couldn't resist!!!) :o

Unrant: My teams are winning!

Rant: I'm tired, of basically everything... :rolleyes:

[Turin]

I hear it's even cooler if you keep your eyes open during the scary parts... :D

(Sorry man, I just couldn't resist!!!) :o



Actually there was barely any very scary parts. Its just a great action film. :o

[Gandalf White]

Actually there was barely any very scary parts. Its just a great action film. :o

Yes, I must see it sometime. A decided lack of cash is holding me back atm, though. :(

[The-Elf-Herself]

rant---> drama drama drama. Lots of drama. Oodles of drama. Drama out the wazoo. I'm sick of drama. It's huge amounts of fun, but we're at that part where we know our lines, we know everyone ELSE'S lines, and..we're tired. Today in this one scene the six of us started switching lines and stealing lines from each other...was fun, didn't make for a happy director though.

unrant---> HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUM!

[Turin]

Rant: I've been home alone all day, and I'll probably be home all day tomorrow. You can only do so much at home after you finish school. After a while boredome kicks in.

[Rhiannon]

Van Helsing was loads of wild fun. Loved it. The plot was incredibly stupid, but it was a VAMPIRE MOVIE. They're SUPPOSED to be stupid. I especially loved the opening sequence--classic B-movie. Awesome. I did get really tired of all the CG, though. For heaven's sake. I'm tired of CG in general. I wish someone would start a classic movie make-up renaissance. CG was cool to start with, but it's eeeeeeeeverywhere. Half the movie was CG. The werewolves especially would have been better as intensive make-up jobs.

But I saw what I went to see--boy howdy, did I. Hugh Jackman is a babe, and David Wenham was great. He's a really good comic actor, I loved it.

And now, rant: I think I mentioned that my dad was having back problems. He had a degenerative disc in his neck that was expanding and pinching some nerves and was extremely painful, but once he's recovered from the surgery he should be good as new. He can't go back to karate until September, though.

I'm too tired for words, I'm sore, I would be crabby if I had the energy, I could use some validation but I'm too tired to be worth any, and I'm all torn up because I'm five days late trying to get time off to go to Angel's graduation and probably won't be free. In short, life sucks and will continue to suck until I get some sleep and/or spend six hours watching Inuyasha and/or Rurouni Kenshin to restore my optomistic, happy-go lucky nature (ha ha. That was a joke).

I. Want. Chocolate. Chip. Cookie. Dough. Ice. Cream.

[Turin]

Yeah you're right, there was a little to much CG and some of it wasn't even that good, but it was still a freakin' awesome movie!

Unrant: I worked for my dad today and got $9 of much needed cash :o.

[Gandalf White]

Rant: Somewhere along the line of Turin's unrant - I need cash! :eek: Oh so badly. :rolleyes:

Unrant: RotK is out soon, very soon! :cool:

[Turin]

Rant: Somewhere along the line of Turin's unrant - I need cash! :eek: Oh so badly. :rolleyes:

Unrant: RotK is out soon, very soon! :cool:

Yeah, I found out today, RotK is coming out on the 25th :cool:. I won't be very excited until the EE comes out though.

[Rhiannon]

Who cares about the theatre release? Nobody wants the bloody theatre release. :o No, we have to wait a whole 'nother SIX MONTHS + to see E/F! aaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!! :mad:

*twitches*

Anyway, the place where I work is having a midnight release party for RotK, but I don't know yet if I'm working that night. If I am then I'll wear my dress ;)

[Turin]

Rant: Today I had to go to my brother's track banquet thingy. I would have stayed home except that theres no food here and there was food at the banquet. Anyway I also went to see how I like the school that I'm probably going to next year. I didn't like the cafeteria much, because all the locks on the bathroom doors where broken off. :(

[Gandalf White]

Rant: I got my parents kinda peeved at me (especially my Mom...horrors!) so I'm crossing my fingers hoping they wake up in a good mood. :rolleyes:

[greypilgrim]

Rant: My boss sent me to the ghetto to clean this superly-nasty, horrific disgusting house, and then scrub the walls to get painted! :mad:

The good side...I got to keep whatever I found there. :) mostly tools and things.

[The-Elf-Herself]

unrant---> Jam has her driver's license! :D

unrant---> MPU is back to work!

unrant--->we're having fajitas for supper tonight!

unrant---> I turn seventeen in less than two weeks!

[Turin]

Rant: Today, we rode in the rain. The rain itself isn't that bad but cleaning your bike after the rain is. The good thing is that I cleaned my bike really well, better than it has been for a while.

[Lomelinde]

rant: I am sick. I am dead tired. it's 12:05am. I have insomnia.

[Gandalf White]

Rant: Today is the last day of the last roller hockey *session*... :( It's hard to think of life without it... :rolleyes: :eek:

*deeply depressed*

[Turin]

Unrant: my sister got home from Alaska safely this morning. She's going to be leaving again tomorrow for Colorado, so please pray for a safe flight.

[Gandalf White]

Will do, Turin.

Unrant: Fortunately it wasn't the last game of the season! :cool: Not only that, but we won our first game and so are in a 3-way tie for first place in the playoffs. :cool:

[Turin]

Congrats and good luck GW.

Rant: All the public schools in the area get out on thursday for the summer. But I still have 2 freakin' weeks left! During those weeks I'll have to double up (more than I have been) because I'm nowhere near done with most of my subjects.

[Gandalf White]

During those weeks I'll have to double up (more than I have been) because I'm nowhere near done with most of my subjects.

Welcome to my world. :rolleyes: I hate it so much.

Rant: I have PT testing tonight for CAP and I just don't feel like doing it.. :rolleyes:

[Niirewen]

Rant: I've been so busy. I can't believe how much work I have even though it's so close to the end of the school year. I'm sick of school and can't wait until summer vacation, but I still have five weeks. Five weeks. Ah.

Rant: My mother wants me to work two jobs this summer.. not so sure I want to do that, but don't seem to have much say in the matter..

Unrant: I've saved up enough money, and finally my car search is beginning. Hopefully I'll have one soon. I'm excited!

Rant: Oh, yeah-- my school's air conditioning is broken. Today was horrible. I hope it'll be fixed by tomorrow, but I doubt it.

[Turin]

Rant: I've been so busy. I can't believe how much work I have even though it's so close to the end of the school year. I'm sick of school and can't wait until summer vacation, but I still have five weeks. Five weeks. Ah.


Five weeks! I'd die if I had over a month left of school :eek:.

[Rhiannon]

I work, I listen to Styx, and I watch Rurouni Kenshin. That is my life. Next week I graduate, and my brother goes to spend the summer with my grandmother. Then I will work and pine after Styx and Rurouni Kenshin.

That is all.

[Turin]

Unrant: (Not for me but for normal people)public school's out today! When my brother got home at 1, he almost imediately went in his room and fell asleep and has been there since :D (thats 4 hours).

[Gandalf White]

Good for him! :cool:

I was struggling over a stupid Trig test for basically the whole day. Lay down on the couch, curled up with my dog, and went out like a light. It was awesome.

[Rhiannon]

Charis did not enjoy today. No, she did not. She did not enjoy today at all.

Register four is possessed by demons of a particularly unpleasant nature, who repeatedly caused the printer to blow up so that the nice people had to wait a looong time for me to get the manager person to come look at it, stare the machine down, mumble incantations and splash holy water on it to make it work. When that ultimately failed, they sent me off to go get a new drawer and go to register two.

Register two is ALSO possessed by demons, albeit less creative ones. The drawer never opens all of the way, and makes a loud scrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeching noise when you close it. Just like nails on a chalkboard.

So at the end of my shift I had to audit two drawers. Charis hates auditing drawers. Charis hates adding. Charis hates freaking numbers! She hates them! SHE HAAAAATES THEEEEEM!!!!!!!!!

Also, all of the freaks come to my register. I get the unhappy mothers who are shrieking at their children, the men with insanely strong cologne, the adolescents who 'left the other five dollars in the car', and the lunatics. Observe:
Charis: And how are you doing today, sir?
Man: I'm bullet proof.
Charis: I'm sorry?
Man: I'm bullet proof. When I was fourteen, my brother and I were fooling around with a .45 automatic. Want to see the scar on my chest where it hit me?
Charis: No, thank you, that's all right. I hope you learned a valuable lesson in gun safety.
Man: Oh, yeah, make sure there aren't any *bleep*ing bullets in the *bleep* gun.
Charis: Words to live by. Have a nice day.


...Okay, so I do stand behind my register thinking, with a mixture of glee and horror, "Ah-ha! Wait until they hear about this one!"

Anyway, in other news: My picture was in the Baptist Messenger! That's the "Oklahoma Baptists' Weekly Newsjournal", so no one will see or care about it except for Baptists, but considering the fact that this is the Bible Belt enough people noticed to point my mom out at karate (I was working, so I wasn't there). My hair looks very blonde in the picture, and I wish they had cropped out my right arm, because my sleeve looks funny...Anyway, the paragraph about me goes "Finishing in second place in the speakers tournament was Charis Ellison, from Altus, First [Baptist Church], with her speech, "Black or White in a Gray World." For her second place finish, Ellison received an $800 ($200 a year, 4 years) scholarship from OBU." ...which I can't used because I'm not going to OBU. Oh well.

So, I graduate next week. I should say something profound. Maybe I'll come up with something before then.

[Niirewen]

Unrant: I got a car!!! Yaaaaay!! It's a 2001 Dodge Neon. It's green. I'm happy. :D :D

[Rhiannon]

Hurrah! Neons are cute :) 2001? Wow, that's really new.... :eek:

[Dragon]

wow..........

it's been.......

a long time...it's like I've fallen off the face of.........TTF....

yeah........

wow........

i dunno what happened...... :confused: :confused: :confused:

[Rhiannon]

Stupid. Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid. So blood stupid. So bloody freaking STUPID. So flaming bloody stupid that she doesn't deserve to live! gaaaaah!!!!!! *beats head on desk* Oh, irony, ye bitter brew.

Couldn't go to best friend's graduation because had to work.

Got schedule wrong, was supposed to go to work at 8:30, went to work at 9:30, got sent home.

Am now sitting home having missed best friend's graduation, missed work, will probably be reprimanded at work (my first freaking job! Augh!), and being such a bloody pathetic person, I bought myself ice cream and flowers. $4 flowers, but flowers, and chocolate chip cookie dough with whipped cream and hot fudge.

So. Bloody. Freaking. Stupid.

[Niirewen]

Aw, it's okay, Rhi. Feel better. :)


Hurrah! Neons are cute 2001? Wow, that's really new....
Yes, it is rather new. I got a good deal. :)

Rant: I'm sick. I feel horrible. It started on Wednesday, and I thought I was getting strep throat, but it's just a cold that I can't seem to shake off. And I have all this work I don't feel like doing.. :(

[Turin]

Unrant: We went riding yesterday, my brother's bike is broken so he had to use my dad's and he let me use his awesome rims, they make my bike 2 pounds lighter(thats a lot for a mountain bike). Hopefully he'll let me use them for the race this weekend.

Rant: When we went riding it was atleast 90 degrees, I was sweating like a pig. Try riding 9 miles in 90 degree weather and then going to karate for an hour and a half :p.

[Rhiannon]

GRADUATION IS OVER! YAY!

Graduating is fun. People give you money. People say nice things about you. Your dad cries for the first time ever and your brother has to read his speech for him because he can't talk.

I also got a bubble machine. YAY! I revel in my power to make bubbles.

And I'm starting an RPG about Morwen Steelsheen over at middleearthrpg.com *nudgenudge* You know you want to go look...

[Niirewen]

Congratulations, Rhi!! :) :)


Rant: My mother won't stop nagging me about applying to all these summer jobs. She's making me apply to like 5 places. I'm so sick of filling out applications..

Rant: School needs to be out. Now. But there are still.. *counts*.. 15 school days. :(


So yesterday I went running, and there was this huge thunderstorm that started, but I kept running anyway because I was angry and depressed and being an idiot. That's all.

[Ambartur]

Ya know, Niirwen, we need to have a nice, long, deep discussion about our lives and our life experiences. I think it would do us both some good. Why don't you PM me with your e-mail adress so we can start having these discussions? That sound good to you?

Rant--I'm really dirty. Why am I even on the computer right now? I should be in the shower, cleaning off all the dirt and grime from cutting grass. I'm a disgusting person!

Unrant--New favorite band! Well, not really favorite, but still, it's emo, and emo's the coolest ever...They're good. "Something Corporate". Ok, so they're not a Christian band, but I tend to count emo along with old, classic rock'n'roll (e.g. The Eagles, Boston, etc.), so I'm not really worried about it. Whatever. But they're really good. Lots of piano, which is always cool...

Unrant--After church last night, we all went to Sonic, and then to the Youth Pastor's house. We played poker until 11:30. I got in second place, but only because we ran out of time. The concensus was that had we had more time, I would have won. I was a shark! I got out when I couldn't win (which honestly wasn't that often), and I called everyone's bluffs. That is, after all, all poker is--calling the other players' bluffs...

We played charads a little, too, but poker was more interesting...

Unrant--The presence of God is so awesome! It feels sooo good to be back in! It's amazing! Ahh! *shivers* I can't imagine how I got along without it...

Rant--My brother is really starting to make me angry. He never keeps his part of the room clean, and the mess always spreads over into my area. Couple that with his general slobishness constantly making my mom mad at him and you have a halfway neat-freak sharing an overall destroyed room with an inconsiderate, angry slob of a brother. It's annoying. But he's moving out soon...As is my other brother. Yay.

Rant--I have nothing else to talk about! Nooo! What is this, that I have nothing more to rant about?!? What has happened to the long-winded rantings of my desecrated and pitiful excuse for a life? How could this have happened?

[HobbitGirl]

Ugh...boy, do I need to rant. I don't care if no one listens, but I REALLY need to rant.

First of all, I'd like to make an unrant. I'M BACK! :D Yay!

Rant: I'm moving. Again. And in a very turbulent time in my roller-coaster ride of a teenage life. I'm sixteen. Not a fun age for major changes. There are a whole slew of rants that come from this one problem.

Rant: I'm grounded, and at the most inoppurtune of times. I'm grounded until the end of the school year, and we're moving from Utah to California at the end of the school year. My parents gave a guesstimate that we're heading out around late June to early July. That leaves what, three weeks to spend with my friends? Three weeks? To catch up on all the things I've wanted to do for the month and a half I've been grounded? Yeah right! I want to hike, I want to go rock climbing, I want to party all night with my Jordan High friends, I want to write stories all night with my Hillcrest High friends. Three weeks isn't NEARLY enough!

Rant: The uncertainty. I don't know exactly how much time I have left here. It could be a week, it could be a month and a half for all I know. I want to know when I'm leaving; I want to be able to plan! Half of the extrodinary amount of anxiety and depression I'm feeling right now is from the &%$# uncertainty!!

Rant: The only oppurtunity I may have to see all of my friends again is some sort of end-of-school/going-away party. My family doesn't have enough money to throw said party. Even if it can be thrown, the guests would have to bring chips and other such snacks. We only have enough to provide hamburgers and drinks, if that. This notion of a gigantic party means more to me than I can possibly explain. It may be my last chance to see some of my friends. I may never see them again if I don't find some way to pull this off.

Rant: Packing. Not the actual action of doing it; I've moved many times before, and I know the drill. It's the symbolic and sentimental significance of the action. Packing shows that the move is real. Packing shows that there is no turning back; that you have to leave, and nothing can stop it save an act from God. Having to go through all of my memories, all of the objects that I constantly lose and only find again when I move--having to throw all of that away. "Just let it go. There's not enough room in the new house. Just let all that stuff go." How can I let go of my memories? How can I let go of my past?

Rant: This unexplainable feeling that I have that I'm making a trade-off. All of my family lives in California, along with a very, very good friend of mine, whom you know as Kailita. The ocean is in California. I miss mi Madre Pacifica. But I'll also miss the Wasatch Mountains. I've come to realize that they are without a doubt the most beautiful range of mountains I've ever seen. I don't want to not have them fifteen minutes away from my house. I love them. I look to them for protection and shelter. Am I trading away the mountains for the sea? Am I trading my friends here for my friends there?

Rant: Regret. There are so many things that I didn't do when I was here. I've lived in Utah for three years. I heard this place was a rock-climbing Mecca, and I know it's a skiing Mecca. I've gone skiing persicely one time since I've lived here. And all that Olympic snow never passed beneath my feet. I haven't gone rock climbing once since I've lived here, and the amount of times I've gone hiking I can count on one hand. Normally, I'm a very outdoors-y person. I love nature, even little glimmers of nature in the midst of a city make my heart soar. Since I've been here, I've taken this place for granted. I've put off so many things for another day. Why can't I just learn to live one day at a time? Why can't I realize that doing what I need to now relieves much stress, and doing what I want to relieves everything else? Why do I have to be so stupid and so lazy sometimes?

Rant: The weight of all my mixed-up feelings. My anxiety and depression themselves. The numbness that's come with them, the numbness that's covering them up, enabling me to function (sort of). The inescapable urge to just get away; to just escape into something that's not real (i.e. the Internet and other role playing). The guilt. The guilt that comes from escaping instead of doing the things I have to do. I hate guilt. It gnaws at your insides, chewing holes in you until there's nothing left, until you're empty.

Rant: My unexplainable and conflicting desires that are floating to the surface like oil because of all this stress. I want to defy authority. I want to tell my teachers to *&^% off. I want to be selfish. I want to be childish. I want to be a #^@*!&$ bad example for my little sister. I want to whine and complain. I want to get good grades. I want to succeed. I want to be apathetic. I want to escape. I want to escape...

So yeah. I think that should about cover it. If I think of anything else, I'll throw it on here too.

[Kailita]

Gah.

I hate change. I despise change. It's stupid. It's not fair. And it's inevitable. That's the worst part. It's inescapable.

Why does everything have to change? People grow up and go to college, people move, people gradually begin to turn into other people until you don't even know them anymore. Why must all good things come to an end? Why does change - even good change - always have to have such bittersweet overtones?

Happy graduation, Rhi. Whew. Seems like you've gone through a lot this month. I hope all is good on your end. I love reading your Rhi-ish comments...even when they're mind-blowing, eye-searing rants. It's very you. Don't totally abandon us when you go off to college, okay...? I would miss my pseudo-big-sister way too much.

HG...I don't think I'm even going to start with you. But I will give you a big hug. It's not fair. It's not fair. You've already dealt with your share of moving...you've had enough pain from that...it's not FAIR for you to have to go through that again. And if anybody tells me that life is not fair, I will impale their head on my javelin point. :mad: Just because life isn't fair doesn't mean we can't be upset about the injustice of it.

I will tell you that I can - truly - empathize with where you are. I know that slippery uncertainty and I know the dread and the apathy and the swinging pendulum emotions. I was where you are, exactly a year ago. That was when all my friends moved away. And I don't have any easy answers for you. It hurts.

Have the party. Screw the money. It doesn't have to be expensive. Just do the hamburgers and the drinks if you can, then have everybody bring something with them. That's not too much to ask of your friends...nobody's going to care. Something I learned from last year is that as long as you can be together, the rest of the details don't matter.

You are not trading anything. I can't emphasize that enough. You are not trading ANYTHING. You are not giving up the mountains! They are part of you, and you don't have to let them go. You have a wanderer's spirit - your home is nowhere and everywhere at the same time. The mountains will always be yours. So will the ocean. Wherever you go. This isn't the last time you'll see either of them. See it as migrating...you know how the Kachitas move with the seasons? They get to see the beauty of all of their land because of it. Your season may be a little longer than theirs...but you will return. This is not the end.

I did a very stupid thing. I looked back. Like pages and pages back in this thread, back in the 40s. Back when Yay and Shush hung around. When D and Jam came by more often. When I came by more often. I used to practically live here. I love the new Outcasts...they add more spark to our threads...but I feel like we've really lost something. Something I wish the new Outcasts could have known. Am I way off here?

[Turin]

Gah.

I did a very stupid thing. I looked back. Like pages and pages back in this thread, back in the 40s. Back when Yay and Shush hung around. When D and Jam came by more often. When I came by more often. I used to practically live here. I love the new Outcasts...they add more spark to our threads...but I feel like we've really lost something. Something I wish the new Outcasts could have known. Am I way off here?

No, you are not way off, Yay was the outcast founder, and he certainly did put his own little twist on things. But as you said, all good things have to come to an end, whether we like it or not. I just hope that Yay and the other outcast elders would come back to visit some time, when they left, they took a big chunk out of this place.

[Niirewen]

HobbitGirl- I can only imagine how hard what your going through right now is. One of my closest friends moved this year, which has been difficult for me, but I know it is even worse for her. Anyway, I'll be praying for you.


Unrant: I planted my little garden yesterday. A little late in the season, but, oh well. The little plants I got from the nursery aren't looking very well, though, so I'm waiting for them to get stronger.

Rant: Memorial weekend was great, but I'm not looking forward to going back to another week of school tomorrow. :( I still haven't done all my homework yet. :rolleyes:

[Gandalf White]

Rant: My Monday off was an absolute snore and now it's back to work! And I don't even have the weekend to look forward to. :rolleyes:

[Rhiannon]

Life sucks.

*fetal position*


Happy graduation, Rhi. Whew. Seems like you've gone through a lot this month. I hope all is good on your end. I love reading your Rhi-ish comments...even when they're mind-blowing, eye-searing rants. It's very you. Don't totally abandon us when you go off to college, okay...? I would miss my pseudo-big-sister way too much.

Right. I'm not that easy to get rid of...

I'm just so tired all the time. It's like I have nothing to say. That's all wrong, isn't it? I mean, my whole personality is that I have words bursting out of me like strings of garishly colored confetti. But I just want to curl up in the fetal position on a pile of nice soft cushions and not talk, and watch everyone else go by around me.

[Lomelinde]

...I just want to curl up in the fetal position on a pile of nice soft cushions and not talk, and watch everyone else go by around me.

amen, sister.

rant: mom is a huge controlling freak. and she means well. but darn it, I need space. back up, woman!

[Ice Man]

Hey y'all.
Just dropping by to say hi.

Today's rant is:

I hate it when I'm sick. Last night I had a snack at the small convenience store and in the middle of the night I woke up feeling as if I was about to throw up. I went to the bathroom and sat on the floor next to the toilet waiting for 'it' to come. Nothing came and I began to feel these strange chills in my body and sweat a lot, almost as if I was in a sauna.

I went back to bed and slept until 10am. Ssince I'm not well, I won't go to class today. Now I feel weak and my stomach is a bit disturbed. I barely ate at lunch and all I feel like doing is sleeping.

I hate it when I feel like this, because I know I'll be useless for the entire day.

Darn.

[Ice Man]

By the way, if you have time and are interested, check out my fotolog. http://www.fotolog.net/ericoclx

See you later.

[Turin]

Rant: Everyone in my family has been more annoying than usual for the past couple weeks, or maybe its just me but they seem to be becoming unbarable. I need to get away, away from everyone I come in contact with daily, just someplace with a computer and internet connection, and I'll be happy.

Rant: I'm usually home alone all day, thats the way I like it, but now since my brother's out of school, he's also home with me, being around him all day makes me mad. He makes it a point to annoy me, deliberately standing behind me while I'm at the computer, I locked him out of the house for a while today, but then my mom came home and I had to let him back in. I need to get away.

[Gandalf White]

Try three younger siblings... :eek:

Rant: I just wanna be done with school..

[Niirewen]

rant: mom is a huge controlling freak.
Hm. Definately know what that's like. :rolleyes:


I'm just so tired all the time. It's like I have nothing to say. That's all wrong, isn't it? I mean, my whole personality is that I have words bursting out of me like strings of garishly colored confetti. But I just want to curl up in the fetal position on a pile of nice soft cushions and not talk, and watch everyone else go by around me.
I guess I could say I know the feeling, Rhi. Everyone has times where they just want to keep to themselves for awhile. But it is unsettling to have that weird feeling when you don't quite feel yourself, if that's what you mean. Go ahead and curl up on your cushions for awhile, and take a break. But don't stay away for too long, because I would indeed miss your "Rhi-ish comments." :) And don't let life get you down too much, it's troubling to see you so distressed. Seriously. Feel better.

[Rhiannon]

Thanks, guys *big outcasty group hug*

I feel like having a job is sucking away my creativity...I'm really tired all the time, even when I've gotten 8+ hours of sleep, and I just....don't want to do anything. Very apathetic. And I feel a depressed cycle coming on. In retrospect I think I've been kind of holding it off for a while...and I always get down after a big event has just ended, so now that graduation week is over I'm falling apart all over the place. Gah. *whimpers* I'm an ineffectual failure....

I'm just not happy. And I know that happiness is a choice, but I'm having a hard time caring enough about the fact that I'm not happy and I could be to put forth the effort to work at being happy.

That doesn't make any sense.

I'm not miserable...but I'm not happy.

Bleh, I'm just getting more incoherent. Lime sherbert punch, anyone? The least I can do is put on my pity party with style :p

[Turin]

Rant: I have about 20 lessons of geography homework to do today because my mom wants to sell the book on saturday and I'm not quite through yet :o .

[Rhiannon]

Wow. Yikes. Poor Turin. *winces*

[HobbitGirl]

Rant: Numb. Numb, numb, numb, numb. Confused. Poetic. Not poetic enough. Epitomy of incoherent. Mute. Apathetic. Numb. Very, very numb.

[Kailita]

Thanks, guys *big outcasty group hug*

I feel like having a job is sucking away my creativity...I'm really tired all the time, even when I've gotten 8+ hours of sleep, and I just....don't want to do anything. Very apathetic. And I feel a depressed cycle coming on. In retrospect I think I've been kind of holding it off for a while...and I always get down after a big event has just ended, so now that graduation week is over I'm falling apart all over the place. Gah. *whimpers* I'm an ineffectual failure....
You. Are. Not. *Takes a stand on this one*

You are one of the most creative, smart, caring, wonderful people that I know. I know how you feel with that job...that's what school does to me. Apathy claims the best of us...don't let her get her claws in you!

I'm just not happy. And I know that happiness is a choice, but I'm having a hard time caring enough about the fact that I'm not happy and I could be to put forth the effort to work at being happy.

That doesn't make any sense.
It does. It does make sense. It's okay to not be happy. You don't have to be happy. Happiness may be a choice, but it's a lot harder to choose when things are only so-so. But don't lose your joy. Don't lose your hope. You're in one of those weird hazy changey times, and it's so easy for depression to creep up during those times. But don't give up. It will get better. It will get better, promise. :)

[Turin]

Rant: Today, I'm being forced to work with my dad, for who knows how long. I should be home catching up on school but he thinks I'm spending too much time on the computer. He shut off all the power to this part of the house, but I'm smarter than he thinks. I found the exact right switch and flipped it back on :p.

[Niirewen]

Rant: I haven't been online in a week. :eek: (That's a long time for me.) I think I'm experiencing withdrawl.

Rant: Busy with school again. :( I've had two tests this week, and still have two more. And being so close to the end of the school year, I really don't feel like studying, or doing anything school-related. But my grades sort of depend on these last few tests/projects. These last couple weeks have really dragged on.. and there're still 6 more days left. :(

*deep breath* One week. I can make it.

I don't even want to think about finals. *moans* Finals are such a drag. :rolleyes:


*hugs Rhi* Things will get better. They will because they have to. I know it's hard not to give into depression, but try. Do something to make yourself feel better, think happy thoughts! But if you need someone- if you need cheering up, or someone to just listen, we're all here for you. Life can be tough.


Lime sherbert punch, anyone? The least I can do is put on my pity party with style
Lime sherbert punch? *giggles* Sounds good. Let's have some, then. Cheer up, Rhi :)

[Rhiannon]

Thanks, guys! *hugs Kaia and Niri, and Turin for good measure* I am convinced that my boss hates me (for various reasons which you can read about in my LiveJournal http://www.livejournal.com/users/charismitaine/ if you like), but I'll just have to deal with it. I feel better now that other people have said that she's unreasonable and that it's really not my fault. My sense of self doesn't feel so attacked.

[Niirewen]

Rant: I had a bad night. I feel yucky. *sigh*

Hopefully all will be better tomorrow..

[Niirewen]

Unrant: There is this bookstore near where I live that is going out of business and everything is 90% off.. so I went there with my mom yesterday but it was closed. :( So we went to this other used book store instead, which has lots of really good stuff. We got at least two dozen books between us. It was very nice. :D

Rant: I'm really bored- I'm procrastinating studying for my Spanish final tomorrow. :(

[Turin]

Unrant: We went to see the Chronicles of Riddick last night, it was so awesome! Nobody knows it was the sequal to Pitch Black, one of my favorite movies. Just remember, I liked it before it became popular :p. The Chronicles was a great movie, a lot of awesome fight scenes and not to much cgi. I think there probably will be a sequal to it too.

[Gandalf White]

Ha, I knew it was the sequel to Pitch Black! And I haven't seen either of them... :p From what I've seen, the reviews have been not-so-good, although the game based on it got awesome scores. Also, didn't the N64 have a game called Pitch Black, based on the movie? :confused:

[Turin]

Ha, I knew it was the sequel to Pitch Black! And I haven't seen either of them... :p From what I've seen, the reviews have been not-so-good, although the game based on it got awesome scores. Also, didn't the N64 have a game called Pitch Black, based on the movie? :confused:

Forget what the reviews say, make your own oppinion :D. It was an awesome movie, I've been looking forward to seeing it since I first saw the trailer at RotK :o. There was almost nothing I didn't like about it. :cool:

[Gandalf White]

Problem is, I have to see it to do that.. :p

[Niirewen]

Unrant: Chemistry and Precalculus are gone from my life! *sigh of relief* I'm trying not to worry about how I did on those finals. Tomorrow's my last day of school (finally!) and then I'm going on a short vacation to my uncle's farm for a family reunion. :)

Yay for summer vacation!!

[Gandalf White]

Rant: Economics is absolutely killing me. 'Nuff said.

[Rhiannon]

Unrant: I have survived my first three day road trip ALIVE! My brother and sister and I drove down to visit my best friend Rai and our online friends Jenn (who lives in the area) and Edie (who lives in Germany and was visiting the states). We spent the whoooole day together, and had a marvelous time--botanical gardens, bookstores, Chinese food, mall, and movie theatre. It was great fun.

Rant: I got my first traffic ticket last night. Erg. *bangs head on desk*

[Saucy]

RANT: i hate stupid *cough* no names *cough* that think something is what it isnt...

AND IT ISNT..... :(

[Gandalf White]

Rant: I got my first traffic ticket last night. Erg. *bangs head on desk*

Give it a different name. Such as "high speed driving award." Ah yes, that sounds better!

RANT: i hate stupid *cough* no names *cough* that think something is what it isnt...

AND IT ISNT.....

Do I know what you're talking about? :confused:

[Saucy]

if u do i dont kno, :(
depends if a certain someone told you or not...

doesnt matter ne ways, cause what it is it ISNT!

[Kailita]

You're such a rebel, Rhi. ;) And your crazy boss lady does sound evil. I'm sure it's her fault and not yours.

Yay! Isn't it great to be out of school, Niri? Have fun at the farm!

Minor Rant: I hate the dentist. Blegh. I SWEAR, I BRUSH MY TEETH TWICE A DAY EVERY DAY! But EVERY SINGLE TIME that I go, the dentist tsks at me and tells me to brush my teeth and then picks at me for not wearing my retainer, which doesn't fit anymore. URGH.

HATE...him...*mutters*

And I hate how he and the nurse lady talk over my head in dentist-language so I have no idea what they're saying about me.

[Rhiannon]

Mwahahaha. I love being insubordinate.

Today was pretty good. I anticipate tomorrow being good too. In fact, I'm happier than I've been in a while. This is good.

[Raithnait]

RANT: my brother doesn't understand why I need to leave the house at 8:30 to get here by nine so I can get online! He forces me to wait until nine to leave, even then under protest by him(and me... let's go). I need to get here because a)much much faster connection, b) I can get a good spot and not have to walk half way across campus, c)it's a five minute walk to my building, d) if I were at home I couldn't get nearly as much done online and e) taking a math class in the summer is bad enough as it is without quarrelling with your brother every other morning about when to leave and f) Algebra is evil.... "It's like sums with letters for... for them as ain't smart enough for numbers..."(trying to quote a Terry Pratchett there, but it's been too long since I read it....)

[Turin]

Rant: So much grass to mow, so little time. :rolleyes:

[Lomelinde]

rant: my beau has been 4,500+ miles away from me for 9 days. this may not seem like a long time but it sure feels like a really long time

unrant: he comes back tomorrow sometime

re-rant: but I want to see him NOW! *pitiful*

[Niirewen]

Yay! Isn't it great to be out of school, Niri? Have fun at the farm!
Yes, it was much fun! I got to see my cousin from Iowa whom I only get to see once a year, and we went on hikes and hung out by the creek and played LOTR Monopoly and fun stuff like that. But I got poison ivy. :( I hate, hate, hate poison ivy! I haven't scratched it once but it still seems to be getting worse.. it itches so badly!!

Oh, and since the topic of the dentist was brought up.. I have to get my wisdom teeth pulled this summer. :( I'm not looking forward to it.

And while we're on the topic of tickets as well, I got a parking ticket this year from my school, which I never paid. It wasn't my fault. Seriously. I parked at the end of a row because there WEREN'T ANY PARKING SPACES LEFT. What was I supposed to do? I'm not going to pay $25 because they don't have the common sense not to sell more parking passes than they have spaces.

Rant: I'm grounded. I'll spare you the details.

Rant: I barely got 5 hours of sleep lastnight, and I have to babysit until after midnight tonight. I'm so tired, I don't know how I'll stay awake.. I'll probably have to resort to sugar energy.

[Turin]

Unrant: Leaving for youth camp on friday, I'll be back on the 4th I think.

Unrant: I'm so glad I'm going to youth camp, I've needed to get away from my family for a long, long time :rolleyes:.

Rant: Today, I swung at a tree with a sword and, well, the sword broke in half! The good thing is, it wasn't mine :p.

[Gandalf White]

The good thing is, it wasn't mine

But whose was it? Will this cause you to want to leave for camp even earlier? :eek: ;)

[Turin]

But whose was it? Will this cause you to want to leave for camp even earlier? :eek: ;)

It was one of my friend's, that's *cough* related to Mac *cough*, and Mac, don't tell him I broke it. I'll buy him a new one like it when I get the chance.

[Niirewen]

Rant: Running practice is tonight, and we're having time trials. Ughh. I am so out of shape, and I've only been to one of the practices so far. I'll probably end up getting a really bad time.. oh well.. getting back in shape is such a drag..

[Raithnait]

RANT: Rain and traffic together really stress me out. I mean, like nothing else in the world can stress me out. Three major papers due in the morning is a piece of cake compared to rain and traffic and my stupid bloody overactive imagination. I bought donuts and lunch and some books for therapy, because I kept imagining a crash and bloody arms and casts and months in the hospital, or dying on the side of the ditch because no one saw my car in time to save my life... or not being able to make my final because I can't write because my right arm is in a cast, and then not being able to attend school in the fall and then being majorly set back... etc, etc, etc. My subconscious is the most viscious thing I've ever met, he scares me.

[Niirewen]

Rant: I have been working so much lately..

Unrant: I'm going on vacation next week. :D


Things are really deserted around here...

[Lomelinde]

RANT: Rain and traffic together really stress me out. I mean, like nothing else in the world can stress me out. Three major papers due in the morning is a piece of cake compared to rain and traffic and my stupid bloody overactive imagination. I bought donuts and lunch and some books for therapy, because I kept imagining a crash and bloody arms and casts and months in the hospital, or dying on the side of the ditch because no one saw my car in time to save my life... or not being able to make my final because I can't write because my right arm is in a cast, and then not being able to attend school in the fall and then being majorly set back... etc, etc, etc. My subconscious is the most viscious thing I've ever met, he scares me.

goodness.
actually, I feel much better now. I thought I was the only one who had an over active horrific imagination when it came to situations like that. tho I've gotten much better.

rant: I don't feel good. seriously. nothing about me feels good. I think I need to go in and be tested for either diabetes or anemia...or hypochondria :rolleyes:

[Turin]

Unrant: Glad to be home, I've been gone too long without a computer. I'm leaving again in a couple weeks though.

[Rhiannon]

goodness.
actually, I feel much better now. I thought I was the only one who had an over active horrific imagination when it came to situations like that. tho I've gotten much better.

Oh no. I have an excessively vivid imagination, and I am always imagining freak accidents--especially when I'm holding babies. 'Oh Dear God, what would happen if I tripped and fell on that ironing board? Better stay far away...Oh Lord, too close to the stove, what if it exploded?' etc.

[Supernita]

Hi all, I just stumbled upon this outcast forum and I think I like it :). Do we have to provide proof of outcastdom to post here or do people assume that "cool" people wouldn't bring themselves down to our level and post on a thread such as this? Well anyways, what bugs me is people in general. 99% of all people are just not good. They cut people off on the highway, don't help other people, do really stupid things ALL THE TIME, and just generally suck. Of course the other 1% of people (which includes myself :P), are super nice, helpful, intelligent, and therefore shunned and outcast by the "other" people. Funny how the world works :)

[Lomelinde]

99% of all people are just not good. They cut people off on the highway.. ...but it was an accident! they were in my blind spot! :( ;)

[Saucy]

Rant: :o it is my first offical week of summer, and i sense that it wil be very boring followed by many more similar weeks after it.

of course i dont mind just staying home,
but home alone?
and because i live a shortwhile into the middle of nowhere iam totally secluded from going anywher .....possibly a well thought out plan buy my parents who when i was very young assumed i would be troublesome.

iam not troublesome!

anyways it wouldnt be so bad if the people i regularly chat with on msn were around, unfourtunatley they have not been, and will not be.... :(

[Gandalf White]

Rant: I have a graduation speech to write for Saturday, and I keep putting it off. :eek:

Rant: My mom has thought up every embarassment possible for my party. :(

Rant: Girls. :confused:

[Supernita]

Hey girls aren't that bad... oh wait, yes we are :P. Heh, just give up now.. totally give up, don't try to understand girls because we're not meant to be understood. Just do all the typical stuff to keep us happy, and your life will be good :). You will never be right, you will never win, and if we're not happy, you won't be happy. I think that's pretty much all you need to know :)

[Lomelinde]

yeah nita pretty much hit the nail on the head. give us chocolate. and if you don't have chocolate, run. run hard. *grin*

rant: going to the eye doctor today. they have this evil way of testing for glaucoma...they poke you in the eye with a stick :eek: *shudder* seriously evil.

[Gandalf White]

Hey, I never said girls were bad, just confusing! :p And knowing me, I'll never give up trying, and will therefore be doomed to a life of frustration.. :( ;)

Being poked in the eye??? :eek: That is just plain wrong...

[Rhiannon]

So this weekend while I was home alone the cats managed to knock over the birdcage and eat one of the birds.

This afternoon one of the kittens (Faramir, oh God) got hit by a car. But at least now we're 90% sure it wasn't me. Mom think it was the air conditioner repairman.

Life sucks.

[Lomelinde]

dude that stinks! ...except I'll admit the bird part was morbidly amusing.

rant continued... : THEY POKED MY EYE!! geez I hate that. hate Hate HATE it!

[Supernita]

Rant: I had this stack of plates on the counter (yes, I know, I should do dishes more often) and one of my cats jumped from on top of the fridge onto the stack of plates.. and broke one!! And it wasn't one of the crappy ones, which made up about 75% of the stack.. it was one of my nice good ones.. part of the only real "set" of dishes I've ever had. Although thanx to my cats, it was no longer a set anyways. Still made me mad though.

[Turin]

Rant: I got sick at the airport while waiting for my sister's flight. I hate being around a lot of people, one of them is bound to have a cold!

[Gandalf White]

Rant: I absolutely, totally hate my mom. She's about to drive away the best friend I've ever had because her "womanly instincts" tell her that my friend "likes" me. I swear I'll never forgive her for this.

[Saucy]

sounds to me that ur mother is being overly protective.....*sigh* has usual :(

from what u and A21 tell me it sounds like she is that way alott,

cheer up cause soon u will be off at college, and ur mother cannot not determine who does and who doesnt see, u and who can and who cannot be ur friend.

i mean ur 18, she should get over it and let u go a little


:mad:

[Turin]

My parents are extremely annoying and overly protective. The only good thing is, they'll leave me alone when I turn 18, and let me have my own life. *Sigh* 4 more years :eek: .